I love bus rides home alone.

These are the times whereby i can think and reflect on myself.

its also the best time to plan for my future and all.

dats e reason why whenever i see my frens on bus, i would jus sae hi, and continue my thoughts.

pardon me, but i really love going home alone. HAHA.

whenever im in a bad mood and im out of home, after a long bus ride, i would feel okay after.

and when i reach home, im brand new.

Somehow my thoughts were disrupted recently.

With too many problems surfacing.

Anyways....

wanna hear the ideas and dreams for my life?

When i've passed my average age, and if im married, my kids have grown up, my career has settled and i have earned enough money.

i would like to move to a country away from Singapore. maybe Australia or New Zealand. Or mayb, Africa? LOL. i can go Hawaii find godma as well.

buy a farm, rear cattles and other animals, own a plantation, live a life of peace and seclusion with my hubby (if im married).

if possible, help the people who are living there by educating them and improving their living conditions.

If not, I would do back pack travelling.

Hop by two countries each time i travel.

and back to Singapore before im ready to set off again.

and again, IF IM MARRIED, i would drag my hubby along.

haha. and in a SAD case if my hubby is a tooty kind of guy, den too bad luh, i go myself.

but i dun think these dreams will come through.

cos i have too many things on hand.

too many burdens to bear.

And i dun think i would want to let go.

cos they are my responsibilities.

Too many worries as well.

For now,

I worry for my family.
I worry for my grandparents.
I worry for my friends.
I worry for my studies.
I worry for my projects.
I worry for BSC.
I worry for my SIP.
I worry for my future.
I worry for my health.
I worry for my napfa.
I worry for nightwalk.
i worry for many many other things....

when can all these worries be gone?

i dunno.

sometimes i wish i will bump into someone who looks like aunt on the streets.

I will freak out, Yes.

but i tink the ultimate reaction would be to jump and hug her.

i wouldn't care who dat person is.

i jus want to hug.