cut my hair at sengkang with MAYBELLE's company after paper today!
my hair is so short now!
but its neater now la.
my 'extension' lookin tail is gone!
like GGGOOOONNNNEEEE!
and i had my bangs back. HAHA!
pls tell me its okay. if nt im gonna bang wall.
my holidays has somewhat changed.
haha!
tmr: TEF BBQ sun: Vivo dinner and Villa Bali with BSC ay0708 and ay0809 Stayover at Jumpy's hse. mon: Pisang outing tues: IG camp day zero wed: IG camp thurs: IG camp Stayover at Wei Sheng's hse with 09 gang. fri: Meeting sat: Sentosa Siloso Beach Resort sun: Sentosa Siloso Beach Resort
mon: SIP briefing tues: Travelling around Singapore with the girls to visit all our SIP locations. wed: SIP starts!
TADA! what a great 11 days of FUN!
but im so gonna miss home like madddd.
daddy wans me to visit grandma more often. im afraid to.
gonna visit aunt this sunday =)
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008
11:55 PM
im damn demoralized abt SIT!
so gonna fail.
told the girls that if i pass SIT, i'll roll on the floor from cheers to biz entrance.
HAHAHA!
that's how bad it is.
the fighting fish is suckin up all my attention. HAHAHA.
and i've learnt a new line today.
hide your feelings well, and it will make you stronger.
right Jumpyy?
LOL.
and im eatin cup noodles everyday luh.
droppin hair like mad. but i still like it.
i LOVE the hot soup.
it is the best remedy for cold days like recently.
Jumpy: eh lets eat cup noodles for dinner. Bouncy: HUH. again? eh cannot eat everyday la. nt good for health.
* a few seconds ltr *
Jumpy: Lets go buy cup noodles. Bouncy: OK! wah i cant wait for the soup. Should i get Tom Yam today instead?
OMG. i tink i change damn fast. LOL.
im addicted to it alr. HAHAHA.
stayin overnight to study was fun!
hiding in the dark room when the security guard comes is damn scary!
i feel adventurous when the guard tries to open the door but cant, and walks away.
LOL. oh my god.
my heart skipped like 3894287965384 times in that second.
its freakin scary.
OKAY!
last paper to go on friday, before i actually break up with my notes and pens.
urghhh. i hate MA and SIT!
they're so gonna pull my grades DOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWNNNNNNNNNN.
i cant wait for saturday - TEF BBQ!
and sunday - Villa Bali to drink with the girls.
stayin over at Jumpy's hse after.
and for both days, there is TKD nationals going on.
scream in the day, drink and eat in the night.
01 Sept- IG camp final planning/ Pisang Outing!
02-04 Sept- IG camp.
05-07 Sept - Sentosa Siloso Beach Resort Getaway with clique.
08 Sept - SIP briefing.
09 Sept - Travelling around Singapore with the girls to visit all our SIP locations.
10 Sept - SIP starts! like woohoo!
HAHAHA!
come on come on!
Jo-an says
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Monday, August 25, 2008
11:58 PM
oh my god.
I screwed MA paper upside down.
m so gonna FAIL.
!@#$%^&*.
i know how to do the questions. i jus gt stuck with the numbers.
ARGHHH. slap myself.
i saw grandma yest. she's so frail and weak now.
seemed to have lost 10 kg in 2 weeks.
my goodness.
she needs to do blood transfusion.
it started with 1 pack a mth. den it was 2 packs a mth. den once a week. den now, its 2 packs a week.
its getting dangerous.
zixun jie says she may nt live till the next new yr alr.
for now, grandma is jus waiting for grandpa to come bk from overseas.
den she can leave in peace.
im mentally prepared for the worst.
am i?
or its jus another ordeal that i have to overcome.
usually, the ones who will hurt you are the ones closest and dearest to you.
im holdin back my tears when i see her.
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Sunday, August 24, 2008
4:51 PM
on the verge of insanity with MA.
i hate accounting!
JUMPY! kill me!
i cant rmb what i have tried to memorize the whole night.
and now, its a new start again.
and paper is tmr!
!@#$%^&*
Jo-an says
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Friday, August 22, 2008
5:21 PM
Muggin with Joyce and Maybelle is LOVE!
hahaha!
i love them pls.
esp the crazy competition joyce and i had which left me with 0% of energy after 4 rounds.
today's paper was okay. i hope i can maintain the A i have for events. come on come on! all the studyin has to pay off! love jumpy lah seriously. going through all these shit with me. HAHA! crazy tourism and MA! after paper met groupmates for lunch. haven seen them for a week. haha. funny as usual. jon, pat and i had no where to go after lunch. e rest went home. and we decided to take 23 to nowhere. den i suggested MUSTAFA since its on the way. haha! what a weird idea. it's e funniest bus ride ever. NUMBER ONE! we had this weird and psychotic guy sleepin behind me. i did not realize after pat and jon kept laughin non stop and Pat was takin pictures. i did not dare to look back. so i took a pic with my phone too. and this was what i saw in my phone.
HAHAHAHA! I LAUGHED DAMN LOUD. and the three of us started laughin non stop. we then started camwhoring with the guy sleepin behind.
LOOK AT PAT! HAHAHAHAHHAA!
HAHAHAHA! He woke up anyway, and stared at us before he got off the bus at sim lim square. we laughed again.
KARMA I TELL YOU. IM GONNA GET KARMA.
NUMBER TWO! after the psychotic guys alighted, I asked Pat to bluetooth the pictures he took to me. i turned on my bluetooth and he sent to me. den Jon asked for it too. he had nt turned on his bluetooth. in Pat's list was: Alvin Soh Jo-an x) den Pat said damn loudly: "ALVIN SOH AR?" den dis random guy from the front turned back and said: "YAR?" e three of us stared at him and i started laughing damn loudly again. hahahaha! Pat asked : "HUH?" den he said: "I'm Alvin Soh." den Pat said: " Oh, i was readin from the bluetooth." i couldn't stop laughing and Jon and Pat started laughin. My jaw almost dropped. in jus a short 30 mins of bus ride and we met with 2 weird incidents. The Alvin Soh jus smiled at us before he got off. Wah lao. We know u meh. HAHAHA! okay. gotta start MA soon!
PS: im starin at the pack of MURUKU pat bought for me at MUSTAFA.
haha. damn temptin. its askin me to open it. NAWWW. later later!
when we're studying. HAHAHA!
Bye Bye.
Jo-an says
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Thursday, August 21, 2008
1:52 AM
this is gonna be an emo post yo.
so dun read if u are nt interested k.
click the 'X' at the top right hand corner if u're usin windows.
and click the red dot on the top left corner if u are usin MAC.
i miss aunt.
its the seventh month. and i dun feel her presence at all. But her images are flashin in my mind every now and then. Watchin money nt enough 2, funeral scenes made me cry. nt bcos the old granny died, but bcos im reminded of aunt's funeral. Coming back only at 11pm everynight after SL camp jus to say "hi aunt, im back to see you." and cry as i light the joss stick, and walk to her side, take a look, and walk away. Im tearing right now. i really miss her. When i smell Kate Moss in Kah Yuen and Yuting, Im reminded of her too. Becos throughout the 5 days of funeral, i was carrying dis smell.
Why mus it be so unfair? She is so impt to everyone in the family. Is it true that good people die young? den i mus be a very bad person. I hope im e next to leave. So that at least during my funeral, i still have frens comin to visit. and nt when im old and all my frens and family have left, den there will be no one at my wake. Pls let me be the next to leave. I cant take another one.
Im reminded of her everywhere i go and do. Memories of her jus flashes back. Whenever im watchin korean dramas, or watchin/ listenin to anything related to dance, i tink of her. That could be partly the reason why im avoiding to dance now. I think of her whenever i dance. I hate to be reminded. I will jus tear non stop. I dun wan to feel this way. I want to be happy. She used to fetch me to school for my exams, even during Os and in TP. She would wake up early jus to send me to sch, wishin me good luck for my paper and all. She was so encouraging and always dere for me. But when she needed us, we were nt dere. i have nt accepted her death yet. even when its alr 6 mths, i still cant.
Have been asking myself. If i were to get crashed and fall into a coma now, i may be able to meet aunt. she could be livin alone in another world, peacefully. Listening to all her favourite country songs and music, dancing happily. She will have no worries or illness at all. I would be hesitating to stay with her, and not come back to earth. Leave my cold body behind. Losing all my will to fight for survival.
But i know aunt would want me to come back. Becos i have a choice to stay or leave. She did not. She was still fighting at her last breath. No one was with her. We were all too late. She had been lonely all her life. Even till death, no one stood by her, askin her to leave peacefully. Her eyes wide open, her fingers clenched. She hated herself for nt going for treatment earlier. She regretted nt saving herself earlier.
I never had a chance to tell her how much i love her and how much i wan to share her burden. I really hate myself for being so strong and not giving enough. Why am i always regretting? Im afraid to see grandma now. Bcos she may be leavin soon too. I really hate it. Im avoiding everythin. Im tryin to tell myself that i should live my life for myself. but i cant do it. I know i should treasure whatever time she have with her. But i am nt makin the effort. Knowing that she is crying everytime she's eating alone, i refuse to accompany her bcos seeing her so sad, makes me sad too.
Im being selfish. I deserve to be shot. Im tryin. I really am. I need to think. I need to talk to aunt. I want to know what i should do now. What can i do to reduce the pain that im sufferin. I need to know what leads ahead. I need guidance. I need a hand, to hold me through this difficult period. Even if its jus a simple hug, a pat on the back, or jus a smile, i may feel better.
Come into my dreams will you? tell me what i should do.
Jo-an says
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Monday, August 18, 2008
11:12 PM
i feel for JON.
cos we're in the same boat, same committee, receiving the same comments from others.
read his blog. and woahhhh.
if only i can type the same things out.
i will be a very happy person.
but people will start criticising my words and all.
so yea.
so, read his blog my class, for u guys need to know how we main committee feels.
http://www.entremaneurwannabe.blogspot.com/
im nt talkin abt BSC k.
im talkin abt my class.
and of course, i've said like 9875934659263597207580 times.
i love my group.
=)
we'll stand through everything together.
if anyone is unhappy regarding Jon's mail, u can shoot me as well.
cos i have a say in it too.
and i agree with him totally.
go JON!
Jo-an says
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Sunday, August 17, 2008
10:29 PM
saw this rainbow at my balcony on national day!
studying in sch on a sunday is great!
cos there's no one! (a few la)
the only few probs was no food, no aircon, no lights.
LOL! we had to constantly ask ard for coins to buy things from the machines.
BBQ with the bunch of maniacs last friday was great!
HAHAHA!
we went crazy i swear, jumping frog jumps from the pathway to the lamp post (although i did nt do it.), singing all the songs in my phone out loud, playing king's game and zhong ji mi ma. pushing as to who's turn to be the chef, forcing one another to TA, kenny's wonderful dishes (i love the straw mushroom and bacon wrap!), and many other crazy stuff we all did tgt.
LOL.
and i fell off PAT when he piggybacked me! i rolled onto a nest of ants which freaked me out. bud i was laughing non stop. while sheena was struggling cos she fell off me.
get what im sayin? let me explain.
PAT was carrying me, when sheena wanted to jump on too. So PAT geh kiang say okay. so he bent down to let sheena hop on. When she jumped on, PAT lost his balance. Sheena flipped over, and i fell off.
TADA! wahla! what a nice piggyback game!
i hate insects. seriously. esp those that flies. SNAP!
i had a good laugh and i certainly enjoyed every moment of it! (Except for the gross licks and boobie touches). LOL! girl to girl OKAY. no ill thinking!
after which went to PAT's place to crash.
His place is like WOOOOOOAH.
hahahaha! damn cosy!
i fell asleep. HAHA!
and he's damn hospitable pls. Took pictures of our unglam sleeping postures! You better delete!
more of such gatherings okay!
i really love u guys many many!
tink i'll suffer through the whole sem without u guys.
LOVE LOVE!
hahaha.
AND LOOK AT THIS. played zhong ji mi ma.
PLAIN LEMONS???
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
they are blended with BOMBAY SAPPHIRE, GINEBRA SAN MIGUEL, CHIVAS, HOEGARDEN and SMALL CHILLI JUICES.
like EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWW.
its the ultimate bomb mann.
luckily i did not get any of it.
LOL.
and this last week's zhong ji mi ma ultimate.
HAHAHA!
GUESS WHAT?!
its cheese and ham pancake dipped in bundung!
AND WHO ATE IT?
KENNY!
hahahahhaa!
look at his ultimate face.
LOL!
other than dis pancake there was another cup of drink.
made up of bundung, sour sop, barley, water chestnut and ginger beer.
i drank half a big cup of it.
felt like puking after that.
hahaha! but all in all its still fun!
and oh, this is the wok of bee hoon soup i cooked that day.
wah lao.
who in this era still uses dis kind of wok?!
me loh. hahahah.
im the bomb!
BABOMB!
okay im abit crazy now.
back to my books.
bye!
i love my group yo!
Okay randomly, i love DAIM CAKE from IKEA.
hahaha!
i haven enjoyed myself for quite sometime.
thanks ppl =)
Jo-an says
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Thursday, August 14, 2008
11:51 PM
i should be studyin.
bud i went to watch money no enough with yuender, jing sheng, maybelle and edwin.
OMG. and i was the one who suggested the idea.
damn sinful.
e show is not as good as i thought leh.
mayb cos alot of ppl sae damn nice, so my expectations were quite high.
the only part where i cried damn badly was when the old granny sacrificed herself .
loser luh jo-an.
when it comes to family ties, i die.
cant stand it.
and wah lao!
im in huge debts to mum and dad can.
tink i owe them too much.
will nv send dem to old folks home la.
dun worry k. LOL!
oh and did i mention?
seeing edwin gives me the drive to study!
so appear in front of me more often k.
den i will have the motivation.
LOL.
and jing sheng kept repeating that today is our last thursday lunch tgt.
ya la i noe k!
after SIP den plan again luh.
sure can squeeze time out.
haha.
okay STUDY STUDY!
bye bye.
Jo-an says
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
12:06 AM
i hate chain letters.
like seriously.
they always have like... "SEND THIS MESSAGE TO 10 MORE PEOPLE, IF NOT YOUR LOVE LIFE WILL BE RUINED"
or...
"PASS THIS ON, AND YOUR CRUSH WILL ASK YOU OUT."
like... WAH LAU.
why would i send it out when everyone is going to spam it back at you?
if i were to send it out, more people will be cursed is it?
like, its not true isn't it?
or is it because i've nv really forwarded any of these kind of mails out, dats y im still single?
LOL! KNS!
STOP SENDING ME CHAIN MAILS!
i'll reply a mail to scold you i swear!
!@#$%^&*
there were 2 lizards in the kitchen jus now.
TWO.
and sis was screamin at the top of her voice while using newspaper to sweep them out the window.
bro jus walked to her and dragged her out of the kitchen.
like WTH?
i simply took a broom and swept them out the window.
this stopped the horrible screamings.
YAY.
jo-an rocks.
it was 11pm jus now and mum was nt home yet.
we 3 were worried sick.
tried callin her but dere was no ans.
so sis and i decided to walk the path where mum usually rides home.
mayb she had fallen into the drain or somethin.
and so, we walked and walked.
and bro ungentlemanly stayed at home in case mum gets back.
halfway while walkin, we saw mummy riding.
and we stopped her.
"MUM! WHERE WERE YOU?!"
"oh, i went for a drink at the ge tai"
WAH LAO EH.
worried for nth.
i've been bloggin like everyday.
its bcos i dun wan to bottle up my feelings.
its horrible.
so yea, i need to study alr.
bye.
Jo-an says
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Sunday, August 10, 2008
11:38 PM
stop tellin me sorry
when u are not going to do anythin abt it.
if u really meant it, den prove it by actions.
fuckin pissed and annoyed.
im washin my hands off everythin.
Jo-an says
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Saturday, August 09, 2008
6:39 PM
im gettin addicted to the classical songs!.
LOL!
oh and i jus rmbered.
HIPPOS LIVE IN A PONG!
HAHAHHAA!
Jo-an says
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4:14 PM
woke up at 3pm!
like woooo. i love home days.
LOL.
the 1st thing i did, was to cook for mum and sis.
surprisingly, sis was still sleeping like a log la.
hahaha. i only cook when i have a full day at home.
so mummy made me cook bee hoon soup.
i was happily cooking when she came beside me and 'hardukerned' a bunch of chilli in.
WAH LAO EH.
i hate chilli loh.
i jus stared blankly at her can.
den she went " what? this makes it taste better"
!@#$%^&*
den next up, she wanted to cook yam rice for dinner.
so she asked me to peel the yam and wash the rice.
Reliable Realists are down-to-earth and responsible-minded. They are precise, reserved and demanding. Their most prominent quality is reliability and they will always make every effort to keep any promise given. Reliable Realists are more quiet and serious persons, they do not talk a lot but they are good listeners. They sometimes seem reserved and distant to outsiders although they often have a great deal of wit and esprit. Their strong points are thoroughness, a marked sense of justice, doggedness bordering on pigheadedness and a pragmatic, vigorous and purposeful manner. Reliable Realists do not dither about if something has to be done. They do what is necessary without wasting words.
This personality type not only expects a lot of himself but also of others. Once Reliable Realists have set their mind on something, it is difficult to persuade them otherwise. They do not like to leave anything to chance. Planning means safety to Reliable Realists, as well as order and discipline. They have no problem respecting authorities and hierarchies but do not like to delegate tasks. They are certain that others would not deal with them as conscientiously as they do. In management positions, they are very task-oriented - they make sure that things are well done; however, they do not have a great deal of interest in personal contacts at work.
In relationships too, Reliable Realists are reliability itself. As partners, they are faithful and consistent, well-balanced and sensible. Security and stability are very important to them. They have little time for extravagances and flightiness. Whoever has them as friend or partner can rely on them for a lifetime. However, it takes quite a while for Reliable Realists to enter into a relationship or friendship. They have little need for social contacts; they therefore take great care when choosing partners and friends and limit themselves to a small but exclusive circle which meets their high demands. They tend to show their closeness to people who are important to them by deeds - their partner should rather not expect romantic declarations of love.
LOL. eh wah im reliable hor!
haha!
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1:31 AM
i cant turn my face to LEFT!
something seems to be stuck at my left neck.
oh my god. its damn pain whenever i look down or left.
the first person i could think of is TAT YI!
i love his massaging skills. LOL!
damn shioK.
THANKS ALOT TAT!
im keying like 1000 names and admin number into excel now.
kill me mans.
my eyes are filled with alphabets and numbers that i see double visions.
LOL.
i can finally stay home tmr!
like YAYAYAYAYYAY!
its been like a thousand years since i stayed at home.
and its been 3 nights dat i've slept at the sofa cos i was too tired!
i miss my bed yo.
NATION HI-FIVE WAS A GREAT SUCCESS!
some pics up 1st!
e rest needs to be uploaded.
so next time k!
LOL.
I LOVE JUMPYY! hahaha.
Skipped loners outing today!
PITSTOP eh.
and i skipped drinking with sheena and mahjong/stayover with group mates at kenny's place!
damn sad cos im missing all the fun on a friday night!
haha. bud really cant go luh.
too tired alr! since last week mans.
the fatigue cannot be measured.
i need to key seal points and accompany mum too.
okay luh next time alrite!
i promise!
LOL!
love love!
Jo-an says
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Friday, August 08, 2008
12:54 AM
This post is specially for LOU.
hey babe, u're nt being irresponsible alrite!
i see u everyday at booth!
pls work hard and mug for ur papers and do well for ur projs k!
pull up ur grades dear!
im nt stressed out by this event actually.
i dun get stressed so easily alrite!
many things in this stupid nut head of mine.
i need to sort them out.
i'll nv regret takin up dis event with u!
cos, if u realize, since last yr as main comm till now, dis is e 1st proj dat we are IC tgt.
LOL. love u babe!
and u were a great help to the event, really.
stop reproaching urself!
=)
been havin alot of emotions this week.
i can laugh at one moment.
den the next minute, i start screamin and scoldin.
den the next minute, i smile.
den the next minute, i cry.
den the next minute, i start laughin again.
all these can happen in jus half an hour.
i dunno what's going on in my mind.
im going crazy i guess.
i jus need some time to think abt what i want.
and i know i have ur support in everythin i do =)
Jo-an says
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12:22 AM
NATION HI-FIVE WAS GOOD!
the participation rate was scary.
it really hit the target of 2000.
SURPRISINGLY.
really really thanks to all the subcomms!
without u guys i think i would have died.
and to all the students who participated!
look out for the flag yo!
I'VE OFFICIALLY LOST MY VOICE.
so dun make me talk/scream/shout/laugh.
i'll grab anything near me and throw it at you.
here's some pictures taken during class event!
e rest of the pictures are with PAT!
however, these are pathetically taken from my phone luh.
The event was a great success.
the only thing that spoilt all the mood was nightwalk ended when the event ended.
and we lost an ear piece for the talkie.
Jo-an says
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Tuesday, August 05, 2008
10:12 PM
okay.
i jus realised something annoying.
my spare phone died during nightwalk.
cos from what i heard, the campers keep smashing my phone to the floor.
LIKE WTF?
its jus a phone pls.
and now its ruined cos it rang and u guys simply jus threw it to the floor.
like HELLO!
floor hor! my phone is not a ball alrite.
thanks ar seriously.
there goes my spare phone.
and i lost 2 dolls too.
i dunno why.
Jo-an says
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Monday, August 04, 2008
11:45 PM
CAMP is OVER!
like woahhh.
never had such a tiring camp before.
its seriously fatigue.
LOL!
bud all in all, i enjoyed k.
its the tiredness dat brought the workaholic in me to a greater level.
i feel myself workin even harder for the club.
and i feel impt.
really really thanks to DESIGN, PROG, LOG AND FOODMIN for all the hardwork.
Its e outcome dat says it all.
and sorry for scolding everyone non stop.
LOL. im very serious in my work luh.
and i dun tink im a good person to work with.
cos i flare up easily.
Tiny bit of prob i will KP.
LOL. bad bad.
im seriously sad to the max cos i did not participate in nightwalk at all.
its like, dunno how to say.
i missed the WHOLE thing.
like when i walk into LT...
*claps and cheering*
NIGHTWALK ENDED.
den the next thing i know, everyone is going to bathe.
damn sad pls.
but i really wanna thank maybelle for taking over my job.
im really glad to have her in PROG with me.
cos we get to bitch throughout the whole camp.
and she was a great help in all aspects!
cos i had to rush over to class event.
and sorry for makin u fret over nightwalk.
cos nightwalk was supposed to be my responsibilty.
really thanks for running the most impt event of camp for me!
and thanks Amos and sholleh for finding design helpers for us!
and Yijie for ur Ki Tang skills!
it really means alot to Maybelle and I!
and thanks for accompanying her during Nightwalk.
cos her responsibility is HUGEEE.
and thanks to TOM and Jing Yuan for editting the nightwalk video!
spending 2 whole days in lab to do it for us without complaining!
ITS LOVE.
without u 2, i dun tink nightwalk will be as impactful!
ur video was so scary that 2 campers refused to participate in nightwalk after viewing!
LOL.
see how great u 2 were! Tom! ur muscles are seriously hot luh pls.
Jing Yuan! You are damn colourful luh pls! I LOVE IT!
Anyway,
CLASS EVENT WAS A SUCCESS though.
i swear the organising comm ran ard like mad pigs.
PAT, kenny, Michelle and my voice can be heard at every second of the event.
its like continuously, we taking turns to speak.
Jon and Gek were on stage most of the time.
and its like everyone is totally noob to talkies.
LOL. i feel pro yo.
teachin them all the talkie etiquette and stuff.
hahahhaa!
all in all, the event was a great experience!
and i wanna thank my group for all the effort made!
im sorry i wasn't ard for most of the planning due to other commitments.
but im really really sad dat i wasn't dere for nightwalk!
