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12:41 AM

i've got so much to say today.

haha. bear with me alrite? and if u dun like wordy posts, click the 'X' at the top right hand corner =)

went ICE CUBE to find LONERS CLAN. (can we call ourselves this?)

cos we are 5 pathetic loners who love to hide in BSC room whenever we have breaks or after sch.

had heart to heart talk.

and met CLIQUE dere as well.

we sat at 2 different tables but i managed to move ard to talk to them.

I mus say i have matured so much in e past few months.

my thinkin and mindset is so much different now.

i also mus say that JOYCE and I have the same brains.

like, we really feel and think alike.

and we are very rationale when it comes to relationships.

We see things in a different point of view.

and we see them from the big picture.

People has problems. we can never run from them.

but some problems are really caused by unnecessary behaviours and characteristics.

what people see as problems are so minor to us.

as in, i dun tink these problems should even exists.

For eg. Boyfriend sending a girl home late at night. I think its okay eh. Cos he's being gentleman to do it.

I dun see why i should be angry. Unless I dun trust him at all.

But if the girl has an ulterior motive, den its a different case.

But i know that my bf would be smart enough to handle her.

Not say all guys can be trusted lar.

but since u are in a relationship with him alr, u shld trust him totally rite?

AH YA. I KNOW I'VE NEVER BEEN IN A RELATIONSHIP BEFORE.

and i dunno how it feels like to be in a gf's shoes.

but, from my principles, it is right to do so.

I KNOW I WILL STICK TO MY PRINCIPLES.

people dun believe that i will sae e same things when i get into a relationship.

dey sae it will be different.

but i really think that my bf being kind to other girls is really OKAY!

cos, i dun wan him to be too into me.

as in, being so cautious so as nt wan be to be jealous, he isolates himself from all girls.

like seriously la, get a life.

i dunno how i'll handle my own relationship one day.

But i know that it takes 2 hands to clap.

Me being understanding alone is not enough to sustain the relationship.

and if my bf gives me trouble.

I'll punch him upside down and walk away.

that's e reason why i've been single for 19 years.

i cant bring myself to trust a man 100% to be with him.

unless he can prove to me that he's worth it.

jus like aunt, she gt cheated $$ by her bf before.

since then, she never trusted man anymore.

she warned me not to trust people easily.

and i feel that it is so true.

and i think humans should really treasure their lives la.

the world is ending can.

and they are all still being so childish to go for riots and war.

WTH?!

and keep losing so much lives.

there are so many people wanting to live bud couldn't.

and here there are, people cutting their wrists and jumping off buildings.

what is this!

WAKE UP PEOPLE!

stop it! its ur own life, u control it, not ur life controling u.

and i hate it when people spread things that are not true.

RUMOURS CAN REALLY KILL SERIOUSLY.

like what happened to some of my frens including me.

simple things can jus snowball as it passes on to each and other person.

and when it gets back to you, its like 1000000 times more complicating.

I DUN BITCH ABOUT PEOPLE OKAY.

and what i tell people are always the fact and the truth.

they are things that had happened and its the reality.

not stories that i come up with or whatsoever.

FUCK.

dun put words into my mouth saying " JO-AN SAY" or " SHIJIN SAY"

pls la. fuck you.

its nt e first time people tot i spread their rumors.

and i swear i never do.

if im nt happy with u or ur attitude, i'll tell u straight at ur face.

i will not go ard bitching abt u.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

and stop saying "JO-AN SAY this and that" when only 10% of the details are from me.

why must i face whatever that is in the society in my school life now?

i hate it.

and its the stupid thinkin that the society is cruel.

people backstabing each other in offices and life.

as people grow up, they think that being an adult is to bitch and gossip, climb to the top stepping on others.

It is the mindset and thinking that keeps this stupid norm going on and on.

if people were to stop thinkin that the adult world is cruel, then it will stop with everyone's effort.

why cant people jus live in harmony?

why mus dere be blacksheeps?

are they not worthy enough?

these are all personalities that we cannot change.

you are born to be what u are.

you choose ur own road and passage.

and all i want to say is.

I think that my mindset and thinking is good enough to make my parents feel proud.

cos i m able to protect myself from harm.

they do not have to worry for me.

i've been making my own life decisions since pri sch.

deciding the schools that i want to attend and the kind of life i want to lead.

my parents gives me the freedom of choices.

i make them myself.

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